CindyMouse

I don’t understand how some people have so little interest in their children.
I mean, I’ve only been pregnant for 18 weeks (Today!) but I already love my baby. I’m so excited to finally meet him, play with him, love him and spend the rest of my life making him (and Matt too of course =] ) happy.

How could anyone possibly spend even a day away from their precious baby?
And then still be convinced they are good parents?
I just don’t get it!

I cant remember how old I was…but I remember everything else in perfect detail. I was probably in middle school, not a kid anymore, but still not grown up enough to miss out on the little things growing up sucks from your brain, your heart, your soul. Little moments become little and life takes on a new meaning…
Responsibilty takes over your thought process and no one stops to smell the roses anymore. How tragic.

But this was before…

The thing about having people dislike you is… They usually really suck at it.
I’m not gonna lie to you, There are plenty of good reasons to dislike Cindy.
I’m irrational and a bit bossy. I can be spiteful and I have a big mouth…
(Just to name a few… =])
But that’s not the point.

The point is…people can’t ever really come up with a good reason. Seriously, you should hear some of the crap they have come up with. You’d laugh along with me and feel embarassment for their stupidity.

You know, I wouldn’t even care if these people ever came up to me and told me to my face that they didn’t like me. I’d give them a damn gold star and a pat on the back for being a freaking adult about something.
BUT, sadly, that’ll never happen because people are cowards.
(Myself included at times.)

If only…

I feel better now =]

FIVE things you wish you could say to FIVE different people right now:

1. I can see this being it…i hope you feel the same way.
2. I wish you’d call me more often. We always have such a good time together.
3. I wish you would be good to your other family.
4. I don’t want to or need to discuss this any longer. it’s over, it’s done with…get over it.
5. You need to get your shit together.

TEN things about yourself:

1. I’m an avid reader.
2. I’m in love with Disneyland and anything Disney.
3. My favorite animal is the meerkat.
4. One day, I want to go to DisneyWorld.
5. I’ve always dreamed of starting a bucket list. (Maybe this tumblr is a good place to start.)
6. I am determined to fix my life.
7. I waited 5 years to go back to school and I’m glad i did. I love going to school now. It’s stressful and time consuming, but it’s so worth it.
8. I don’t really have that great of a relationship with the majority of my family…not by choice.
9. I miss going to Disneyland all the time. I hate the LA area, but I wish I lived closer so that I could just go anytime I wanted.
10. Apparently, I talk ALOT!

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

1. make me laugh.
2. intelligence.
3. I need time to bitch and plenty of conversation.
4. I like good surprises.
5. I love when I find out that he actually paid attention to the little things.
6. lots of keesses.
7. Random calls during the day are my favorite thing.
8. I’m just happy when I know he is thinking of me…

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Matt
2. school
3. homework
4. Disneyland/Disney
5. the book I am reading at the time
6. What book should i read next?
7. friends/family
(not necessarily in that order.)

FOUR things you do before you fall asleep

1. read
2. watch tv
3. freshen up/bathroom stuff
4. fix my bed

FOUR things you see right now:

1. this survey
2. my hands
3. my laptop
4. the remote

THREE songs that you listen to often:

1.  I don’t really
2. listen to anything
3. specific that often.

TWO things you want to do before you die:

1. graduate college, go to DisneyWorld,
2. settle down, get married and have kids.
(sorry…that’s five. oh well…)

ONE confession:

1. I’m not as confident as I pretend to be.

wordjournal:

adjective • [obsolete] angry, or in a passion.

From The 1811 Dictionary of the Vulgar Tongue, originally by Francis Grose.

The more
that you
read,
The more
things you
will know.
The more
that you
learn,
The more
places
you’ll go.

MY CURRENT LIFE IN 83 QUESTIONS:

1. Did you just wake up? nope.

2. Whose car were you in last? Reinas.

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone? tomorrow probably =[

4. What is your msn messenger? I don’t have one of those.

5. How long is your hair? an inch or two past shoulder length…i’m trying to grow it out.

6. Last thing you drank? water.

11. Where did you sleep last night? my bed.

13. Are you happy right now? I’m good.

14. What did you say last? okaaaaaayyy.

15. Where is your phone? in my lap.

16. What was the last museum you went to? shoot. the Lompoc museum with Belle and some hoe.

17. What color are your eyes? green.

19. How was your weekend? it was valentines day weekend…and it was goooooddd!!!!

21. Who/what do you hate/dislike currently? math.

22. What are you listening to? commercials.

23. Are you excited? no.

24. What is your favorite store/s? uhh. don’t really have one.

25. What day is it today? wednesday.

26. What were you doing at midnight last night? watching supernatural with my mother.

30. Are you left-handed? no.

32. What’s for dinner tonight? i dunno…

33. What is the last alcoholic beverage you had? beer.

34. When is your birthday? May 16th.

35. How tall are you? 5’2” and 1/2 ish.

36. Who was the last person to send you a text message? Tammy.

37. Do you like anyone? love.

39. Where was the last place you went shopping? walmart probably. haha.

40. Who made you laugh today? Reina. Survivor contestants.

41. Do you have any expensive jewelry? kinda.

42. AIM or MSN? I only use aim and that’s pretty much never.

43. Where do your cousins live? LA area and washington…and a bunch of other places…

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings? i have a bunch of siblings.

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? not at all.

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up? i thought i set my alarm for 6…???

50. Do you drink beer? sometimes.

52. Myspace or Facebook? facebook.

53. Do you have TMobile? yes.

54. What is your favorite subject in school? english stuff.

55. Do you smile a lot? ehh…i guess.

58. Have you ever been IN a wedding? yes.

59. Do you have any children? no.

60. Did you take a nap today? no. should have though…

61. Ever met someone famous? yes.

65. Are you multitasking right now? nope.

68. What’s one of your favorite things to do? hangout with the boyfriend or friends and read.

72. Ever been to Las Vegas? a bunch of times.

73. What are you doing today? i’m gonna hang out with Ashley sometime soon.

74. Have you ever gambled? yes and i suck at it.

75. When is the last time you updated your blog? today.

76. Have you been to New York City? nope. someday.

77. Ever been to Disneyland/world? Disneyland is my absolute favorite place in the entire world. I’ve been a bazillion times.
Disneyworld…no. but it’ll happen.

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character? Peter Pan, Alice in Wonderland, Mickey Mouse…pretty much any Disney character.

79. What is the last thing you cooked? lasagna.

82. Last time you cried? ummm, i dunno.

83. Last time you were sick? i can’t remember…

Nothing of me is original. I am the combined effort of everybody I’ve ever known. Chuck Palahniuk

Because sometimes asking the right questions is the answer.

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do?
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
22. Why are you, you?
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
25. What are you most grateful for?
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now?
30. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special?
31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
32. If not now, then when?
33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that?
50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?